I sent a text to one of my best friends this morning to tell him about this because I was so thrilled. He replied, "I'm sure it's not actual weight, but that means you're eating less which is still good." This pissed me off. I was like, "Um, wtf do you mean, not actual weight?" He was like, well, your body weight fluctuates from day to day..blahblahblah. I'm thinking, what the fuck? Does he think I don't know that? LOL Does he not know how hard I've been working? So I sent him a text telling him he rained on my parade and that it IS actual weight and that I worked my ass off to get those two pounds off so screw him, lol. Then he replied that I was getting offended and that he didn't know what I'd been doing. I realized I've been so consumed in this wellness project of mine that I don't even think I've taken the time to update him or any of my other friends on what I've been doing lately (except for the ones who are also trying to lose weight). So then I felt bad, apologized for going off on him, lol, and gave him a quick update on how hard I've been working for the past month. He's at work so he hasn't had time to respond yet...I hope he isn't too mad. But if he is, oh well. This is the kind of thing that I would normally let depress me and mess up my day. I hate having arguments or using harsh words with people. But I'm just gonna take a deep breath and let it go. It was no big deal at all, I am sure he will understand better now that he knows I've been at this for a month, and if he chooses to be pissy, then I can't worry about that.
I'm so pleased with this two pound loss. I know it ain't much--a tiny little two pounds--but to see all my hard work paying off feels amazing. My weight had gone up after this weekend's festivities (probably mostly water), and so for the past two days I was determined to get myself back in order and work really hard. I feel more motivated than ever.
Also, I've started a group on Facebook for Wellness and it seems to be taking off! 27 members so far and we've already started a challenge for September. Lose 10 pounds by September 30th! I'm thrilled because I love the idea of having others who are working toward the exact same goal I am.
I am pretty much amazed and ecstatic at how much better I feel than I did when I wrote that letter to myself on this blog not even a month ago. And the best part is that I know I'm feeling better for the RIGHT reasons. I'm not masking anything, not avoiding any feelings. I have brought my demons into the light and I am fighting those bitches. :) I feel full of hope and desire for a full, joyous life.
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